Keep Contentment Close

Contentment; that word now feels like a warm blanket.
I remember being more than content, but like any time in life,
things were good and bad.
But it was the good, the things that got me up in the morning
and kept me up most of the night that made my life years ago
so Amazing.

Have you ever dreamed of a way of life?
Ever had a visual in your mind of what that life would look like?
I had a vision, and my life began to reflect it! I was in heaven.
Sure, it wasn't all roses. Nothing Ever is. But it was Glorious.

My wife was beginning to find herself, truly, and took command
of her mind as well as her body.
I went to sleep every night, despite any hardships I may have faced,
Complete.
I was feeding my soul, and paying the bills! Imagine that life!
While I complained about work I loved it.
When I complained about money we had it.
I just wanted more.
Is the grass ever greener though?

I had a life of creating music, music that made our friends fuckin' Move
and other people we didn't even know- they felt moved.
We Rocked dancefloors
in Europe
in Miami
all over Manhattan and Brooklyn
We fuckin' went for it All. I know I did
and I know my boy did too.
We were a Slammin' team on the 1's and 2's - even our friends felt it
and told us about it, and made us feel like fuckin' Giants.

We Were Giants.
When you've got a crowd in the palm of your hand
You Know, you know what its like to connect with
complete strangers, even if just for a moment
and that's God in those Connections.
Not in Our Acts
but in our Hearts.

I felt like that Giant for a little while,
and I worked my Ass off to feel that way
but when it came time to fight for it,
For for what We Had


I folded. Folded to commitments
made out of lust for Understanding.

and found myself
running further away.
Further away from the past,
Not Being in the Present.

and Everything Fell Apart.
Everything.

I Longed to feel like that Giant.
A Giant Amongst Bigger Giants.
they towered over me, and comforted me
and guided me, and watched out for Me
and Cared.
They didn't see my mother in my eyes
or who I was as a child.

They just believed in Me.

and We had Music
Everywhere
and it Was Glorious.

I still Long to feel that way,
Looking forward to Saturday night.
thinking about the music we're gonna hear
over the weekend, through the weekend,
All Weekend.

No Future Trippin' they say
you gotta rebuild
On Day at a Time.
Fuckin' hell.
I was fuckin Contented!
and Happy, and Loved
and Cherished, and I loved
and Cherished
and I miss all the Fools that Inspired
this Fragmented,
From the Heart,
I don't Give a Shit,
I'm Fuckin' Sayin' it,
I Fuckin' Lova ya,
kinda prose,

Aimed without fear
aimed at you.



For the Crew, you know who you are
You mighta danced with us, you mighta danced to Us
but You Remember... and we all looked great dancing
together, Didn't We????